iM sO sICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So Im so sick infested with where I live, let me live without this empty bliss...selfishness.....Im SO SICK!...okay that was from Flyleaf! They rock! and you know I am pretty sick..sick physically...and well maybe emotionally...right now I just hate men...okay sorry God...I dislike men to a great degree...but there is this special someone in my life right now..but im not sure yet of what it may become...I guess time will tell...or will it? I love LIFE...ummmm right?! thats what I have to tell me self so that I can get through the many dreadful yet highly appreciated days of my life...I do thank God for waking me up each and every morning that he decides to, mainly because it just gives me another chance to get life right...which apparently i suck at!!!!!!! I love my friends...they are just lil angels...well some of them...I love my school...Taylor is awesome...I love Jesus...which is really important...did I add that its oh lets seee.....2:16 in the morning and Im sitting downstairs in Bethany lounge with heifer shorts on...aka ...cow printed shorts...with two of my very lovely but wacky friends,...and i should really shower bc i worked out and well ya get the drift!...the bad drift!lol I am so terribly random its ridiculous...How many times do I say like when I speak...ummmm like ...way too many times...i think count them some one please and then tell me and i will give u a prize! a cookie probably bc I dont need them...since i got on that subject of food...im a chronic over-eater! WHY GOD WHY DOES FOOD HAVE TO BE SO GOOD! I really want to lose weight but its so hard when you feel like you have no self control...and I should really have that because its a fruit of the spirit and i want it Now!!!!!!! Well Im going to not write anything else before i begin to vent about things I shouldnt vent about in public!!!!!!!!!!!I hate you...you ol corrupt and sick world...all those who hate it too see ya on the other side...one day...hopefully soon because IM SO SICK INFESTED WITH WHERE I LIVE...LET ME LIVE WITHOUT THIS EMPTY BLISS...SELFISHNESS........LET ME LIVE!!!!!!!!

So I totally havent been on this site in well a couple of months...but then again I kinda forgot I had an account...I usually dont like to spill my buisness all over the place like some people do on here but I guess that what they do...Im just going to say that today is Friday and Im so stinkin excited because that means I can SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!oh yeah and do homework...and clean my room :( yuck...we only have oh 2 weeks of school left so the madness is almost over...I just have to restrain myself from going OUT OF CONTROL! Right now im feeling pretty sick to my stomach...I dont know why...I even had breakfast this morning ...oh that must be it! Darn breakfast....well I had a grape for lunch...sad I know...but I dont think my stomach could handle anymore than that...I wish it was like that all the time...then I wouldnt be...well. I m not going to talk about my weight because people dont like when I do that...anywho I am the queen of RANDOM THOUGHTS!!!! and this my friends has to be the most random blog ever...I wish I could remember to update this thing ...but I dont think I can since its not all that important and I often forget to do even the really important things..most days! Im so excited for the summer...RANDOM... Im workin as a camp counselor at Hidden Falls summer camp...and its going to be a BLAST!!!!!!!! then im after that im totally excited for the next school year since I am going to have the best roomie ever in the best room ever...and plus Im Class president so that should be cool...never had that title before..I was Vice President this year...Man a sista is moving up...Im going t need some bodyguards...see attachment for application...just kidding...! Anyways I think I have combined enough random thoughts for one afternoon...so I shall leave on this note...Praise him when you're happy...Praise him when you're sad...God is amazing and all he wants us to do is live for him...man thats a good God for ya...he will take care of your every need..and bless you when you dont deserve it! Cant beat that! Well Im off to la la land! DO NOT DISTURB!

PEACE LOVE AND HARMONY

 I am so happy today because I passed my reading test........yawhoooooooooooo...God is good all the time...I love my friends especially Alyssa she is becoming more like a sister to me everyday!!!! I just want to pray that my close friends who are more like sisters continue to grow in Christ!!!!!! I am extremly happy right now so I should really be doing homework while I'm in a good mood!!!! TO U ALYSSA AND MY BABYGIRL EMILY!!!!!!!I LOVE U TOO HONEY!!!